It's been awhile since I posted.

When there's a new post = I'M BORED .

I'm addicted to the kpop idol group INFINITE !

've been watching them these few weeks .

one day for about more than 10hours (?) of mine were spent on them :/

omg.

It's been so long since I'm so crazy over a kpop group.

Finished watching almost ALL their shows within just a couple of weeks -_-

Dammit , guess I should change my habit T_T

coz everytime I finish a show, I'll feel REALLY empty x_x

Don't know what else to already ._.

미안해 돟해 ~ I'm falling for 성열이 T^T

He's just too cute that I can't stop looking at him for a day ._.!

holidays are so boringgg.

though I really wanna find something to do (parttime job etc.) ,

I really can't seem to drag my superb lazy body from home.

even when asked to hang out w my friends ... I also needa think twice ._.

Sigh . I'm nervous about my new poly life.

Really worried about the amount of projects I've to deal w a couple of months later.

I'm stressed ,

maybe that's why I'm distracting myself by staying at home and spamming videos and dramas.

okay, maybe that's an excuse :x

I really don't know what's the real reason for me to behave like this.

Whether is it I'm lazy that's why I rather stay at home and spam videos OR

I wanna spam videos that's why I'm lazy-ing around .

Being bored REALLY makes a person think TOO MUCH.

And thinking of senseless things .

Hope I'll be able to find my aim for my life SOON.

I'm such an aimless person now , really.
最近的日子都过得好无聊~

如果是以前，都会好期待放假

总觉得暑假都好短，一下子就过去了

可是这次的暑假 不知道为什么 感觉好漫长~

每天在家里无所事事

朋友们都找到了假期工

各忙各的...

可以约出门的也没几个

我也好像快点找到工作哦~

这样一来，可以赚钱又可以打发时间又可以累积经验...

可是同时，我又好害怕 好担心

不知道打工时会不会闯祸？遇到严厉批评会不会面对？

担心会给别人带来困扰或麻烦

希望一切可以顺利！

神啊，保佑我吧~

P.S. : I MISS 4F SOOOOOOOOO MUCH !!!
痛苦 是现在唯一能形容我现在的感受

难过和无奈 是我现在的心情

因为不知道该怎么面对，解决问题 让我感到不知所措

我慌了

而唯一能让我把自己的想法和痛苦发泄出来的地方 只有这里...

或许...

只要把所有的错怪在自己身上 就不会那么痛苦了？

把错推到别人身上让我觉得自己好邪恶

觉得自己邪恶，我会很厌恶自己

还是... 我本来就是这样？

都是我的错吗...?

对不起

是因为不信任吧？

因为不信任我，才会一直希望每分每秒都在我身边盯着我

因为不信任，所以才会让我觉得被束缚

才会让我觉得有那么一点点厌烦

该继续忍下去吗？

没有信任 又要怎样继续？

没有信任 还会幸福吗？

总以为你会改变...

原来并没有。

是我在顺从...

当然不只是我

我相信你也曾努力过

相信你是因为某些原因... 才会一直那么的不安

我也想让你对我感到放心 可是...

我真的不知道要怎么做

明明没有做错事 却让我感觉像个犯人

好辛苦 好厌恶这种感觉

真的真的...

为什么要逼我...

为什么...
人，真的很矛盾

当拥有的时候不懂得珍惜，

失去后才后悔，想弥补

可是，现实始终是残忍的

有些东西失去了就是失去了，

无论你再怎么想尽办法也找不回来了

即使感到有多抱歉，

有些事就是控制不了

而当这种情况发生时，

我们只能说

这是命运的安排

未来的事变化莫测，

谁也无法预料

有些感觉随着时间而增加；

有些感觉随着时间而淡化

矛盾...

这或许是人在成长过程必须经历的，

也许是种磨练，

让人学会变得更坚强，更勇敢

天天告诉自己，

我不脆弱，我很坚强；

我不害怕，我很勇敢；

我不伤心，我很快乐

只要肯相信，一切都会是真的

只要问心无愧，

做好事；说好话；存好心



Hello :)

Hmmm, here to wish everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!

Although i think i'm only looking forward for 6th and 12th Feb :P

Coz we're going mrs tan's and mr ang's house! *hearts*

-red packets red packets- Hehes x)

Today's concert in school was quite a success ^^

Was totally high all-the-wayyy LOL

After that went Mac with Lau, Val , FQ and SX :)

Enjoyed :D

Hope it's not going to be a sian-day tomorrow x.x pleaseee .

Byebye.

Weird weird weird.

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Forever .





Hi (:

Suppose to study hard today! T^T

end up... Haiz...

Nevermind ~

Later do later do :X


I REALLY LOVE DERRICK HOH WEI JIAN ALOT ALOT NOW!!!


(For chinese singer lah ^^ esp he's singaporean!must support mah xD so hae,dont jealous k? hee)

Ytd had dinner with lyq,val.T,df,yx,gaines,nabil at mac (:

nice nice :D

btw, i owe yx $10 -.-

coz im a filial girl who borrow $ from friend to da bao for my parents LOL

One day of the weekend just liddat gone le~~~ T^T

why sooo fast !?!?!?!?

very sad sia ):

plus still got alot upcoming tests ...

seriously don't know whether i should love or hate sec 4 life -_-

at least, i don't think i'm liking the beginning... (:

Byebye.
getting worse and worse.
what's this?

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